Theres a quote that goes something like, “do something for someone that they can never repay you for.”
I always thought that was so far away for me.. that I could never in a million years mean that much to someone.
A few weeks ago I unknowingly saved one of my best friends life. I prevented her from taking her life and I found out by a letter she wrote to my dad who is also her teacher.
I have never felt so whole in my life that im crying.
At the time, all I thought I was doing was just letting her cry on my shoulder and sharing a couple of my stories dealing with depression. I tried my best to tell her that it gets better because im living proof.
Im having a hard time writing this right now. All I know is that my past year’s and sometimes present moments of heartache, pain, dark thoughts, and sleepless nights is all so completely worth it. I did something for someone that they can never repay me for… and I’m so glad I did.
I was wondering just now why I was so sad and now I know. I got so many comments on something pertaining to my appearance or my eating habits today. Sometimes its okay but when im having one of those “negative self image days” it gets too much for me to handle so I just shut down. Tomorrow’s a new day.. meh.
I need to lose 30 pounds in today